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Debauched Paralysis. [Sep. 21st, 2011|08:24 am]
syren.
I feel like I've just found out how I much I need or have wanted this place again. Maybe the solidification of ever-maturing responsibilites have reminded me of what it was like to dream as I used to. I became ashamed of how much I tended to sugar-coat over the most seemingly mundane times in this journal - but, yes - it was so necessary, in some ways. 

And so, all these changes... (many people from Facebook or life or wherever, may already know these things already). The changes have stunted my desire to come back here. Sometimes I've felt too different; I've felt like just way too much has changed and no one here will like me anymore. Sometimes I've spent way too long on profile layout and userpics... I've come here, changed some aesthetic schtuff, thinking 'Oooo.. this feels much more like me now' only to crash out once finished. The most annoying one is when I do a massive write-up, informing of my current state of mind, and how apologetic I am for having spent so long away, talking about how embarrassed I am of how I am or how I used to be... and then I leave it so long and it gets all out of date all over again. 

Seize the goddamn day!
So here we go. In no particular order ~

- I love tea now... Like, a lot.. just regular English tea, with 2 sugars or more. 
- I have two children: Moonbub & Baby Bub Bub... {fancy fancy goldfish}
- I was in therapy. [Cognitive Behavioural Therapy]
- Since March 2011, I am declared FREE of BDD. 
- I've made many acquaintances. 
- I haven't made many friends. 
- I travel a lot.
- I read a lot on sex and the psychology of fantasies & fetishes. 
- I need women in my life, terribly... Women who aren't afraid to take the false lashes off, or don't even own any. Honest faces and honest hearts. 
- Skateboarding is an incredible art form. 
- I made it back to the sea. [but still need a bucket & spade]
- I have a notable amount of SPUNK. [Seriously, I had no idea of this]. 
- I maintain the forum at BDDCentral as an administrator, helping those with the demons I used to be in battle with. 
- Dark instead of light. [Now you can see why I may dislike the look of my LJ now!]




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[User Picture]From: cp
2011-09-21 05:13 pm (UTC)
It is nice to see you post, anyway, and I hope you are indeed well. LJ seems much more sparse than it used to, in some respects. I always loved your beautiful photos, I hope to see more. :)
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[User Picture]From: ancareth_raven
2011-09-21 09:52 pm (UTC)
Hey! Welcome back! ♥

It would be nice to meet up in person some time again! I'm not in London as much these days though :)
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[User Picture]From: iris_diaphanous
2011-09-22 06:06 am (UTC)
I think you are lovely and will always like you and like to hear from you whether here or facebook. It is very good all that you have done and all the ways in which you have changed as a person.
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[User Picture]From: featheredmane
2011-09-22 06:27 pm (UTC)
♥ ♥ I will always love your writings.
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[User Picture]From: bacchante
2011-09-22 06:50 pm (UTC)
Oh Sammy. I missed you so. x
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[User Picture]From: kaleidestine
2011-09-23 12:21 pm (UTC)
Oh, I have missed you! ♥
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[User Picture]From: kaleidestine
2011-09-23 12:29 pm (UTC)
And I just realized you don't have me added. Do you remember me? I was emgem and under_heaven, among others. I really have missed you and would love it if you'd add me. ♥
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[User Picture]From: unrefinedsugar
2011-09-26 10:50 pm (UTC)
Your victory over BDD is an inspiration ♥
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[User Picture]From: ancareth_raven
2012-03-29 05:57 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, sweetie! ♥
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[User Picture]From: rustedxemotions
2016-03-05 07:53 am (UTC)
You are beautiful.
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